North American Corpse Desecration

I feel better
like the wind shifted directions
ok that's just a piss poor way of putting it, but forgive me, it's late my ability to come up with the sound metaphors is quite limited.
Just the same, a change for the better

Some how I am not dead...
Different but not dead..
Hungry and can't sleeeeeeepp
that is probably why i came here..
the lack of anything or anyone better to do..
blargh

Pardon my annoyence
but really don't worry the saturday of metalfest itll be like you guys don't know me because i was in the wrong for bringing a "spazz"
yeah well its not his fault.. its mine i bought the "spazz" a ticket because i thought it would be a really cool birthday present
but really there's such an adamant hatred for some kid that makes me happy but not 1 of you have ever actually tried to talk to (ps saying hey your really tall does not consitute talking to him)
don't worry me and the "spazz" will stay away from you guys..

funny you guys supported some guy that treated me like shit but the one thats actually really good to me there's nothing but bullshit
like really
sorry if hes not cool enough (rigghhtt)
sorry if hes not particularly coordinated (apparently tripping over oneself while twostepping is a judgement of one's character.. come on how could he not 80% of his body is legs)
seriosuly stop being so fucking lame

i knew this would happen
tried to hold onto my good mood as long as i could
but it didn't last to long
sick fucking show though
it finally keeled over after despised icon

I'm fucking bored.
yes i feel the need to tell you this..


ps. the dunkin donuts near the DMV in boston has blueberry coffee.. its the little things that make life nice

Ok so six months of us not being friends
...Again.
It was cute when we were young
but now its kind of bullshit..
Maybe I should have heard what you had to say
Maybe it wasn't cool of me to hang up on you
But you guys left.. alot..
so what i said something that does not give you the right to be jerks.
i know how its always worked...
i take care of you guys..
end of story
don't expect anything in return because you won't get shit in return

I did hear you ask me if i thought you didn't listen or care
I don't know
I know why I acted the way I did
its just not something i should have said to you

fucking hell
this is a first
i should have stayed with john
at least he wasn't pissing me off

I'm really tired of getting shit for being with him
You guys were more accepting of someone who made me miserable and hated most of you. I'm sorry thats just stupid
Everyone else can chill with their bf/gf in a group
but apparently we're not allowed for some odd reason
who gives a shit if he's young
not that young
whatever.
im just sick of it

Anonymously respond to this...

1. One secret.
2. One compliment.
3. One non-compliment, criticism, or insult.
4. One love note, but it does not have to be for me.
5. Lyrics to your favorite song.
6. How old you are.
7. How long we've been friends.
8. And a hint to who you are.
9. After you do it for me, put it in your LJ and see who does it for you.


Screw you.. im bored at work blahhhhhhhhhhhh

Brand New makes me miss you so much it hurts
but then i think
what am i missing
nothing
just this person i knew yeaaarrrs ago
whatever
god i hate that youve ruined them for me
among other bands
dropkick murphys
opeth
...
no thats about it
whatever
i only miss you when i drink
kind of like how i only loved you
whatever joes better
atleast he walks with me
and introduces me to his friends
and doesnt refer to me as psycho

Going to hell yes indeed
just funny
i know where she's coming from
that she wouldn't know where she would be
without him
wow i'mso rotting in hell

can't i just call in hungover
its not a job
its scarier
i dunno wannaaaaaaaa
just AWKAWARD
clueless

You shouldn't be embarassed by your trouble with living

i'm such an asshole
sometimes it just gets really frustrating
trying to communicate anything
to someone who doesn't listen to ANYTHING
it was a bit harsh to call him a fucking moron
sometimes i forget hes a normal person with feelings
which is quite easy to do
so I text I apologize

So Sunday it will be three years
Shock
and he still hasn't left my ass
even bigger shock
i know i haven't made it really easy
or been particularly good
but i'm more thankful for him than he'll ever know
im sorry for all the bad things ive made him feel
but it works
and i probably wouldn't be here if it weren't for him
i needed someone to come along and make me realize there is
nothing better than hugs and how good cuddling is
god im such an absoulute looser

tommorow im picking up the opeth tickets
love opeth but the fact that their playing with nevermore ughh
maybe i just don't get them but i HATE them
but fucking OPETH
it'll be our fifth time
sad huh but its our thing
like the dropkick murphys
we saw them for our first date
and haven't missed them since
ezcept that time we got kicked out because he let me have some of his drink and i was underage
still...
its our thing =)
still definatley the best person to go to a show with
i need to think of something better to give


confess this was probably going to be some terribly angry or slutty entry
but then i saw brian's im
throwing shrapnel at the crypt
of course i had to tell dave
its expected of me, on both their parts
its like a 5 minute walk from his house if that
so we're going
and I'll just crash at his place..
where else am i going to find a guy who thinks its awsome that my friend's band is playing the CRYPT in everett (no im not whoring the show at all)

ok i need sleep
like WOAH!!
there's other shit but i'll this enrty on a positive note

ugh i have that sick feeling
for so many reasons

Something odd...
He tells me the same things you used to,
Sometimes still do
I can't even begin to describe
how much that scares me..
There have been times when I've stopped myself
midsentence
because I've all ready had the conversation before

While its usually never a problem
I had to see it coming from a million miles away
Fuck Fuck FUCK FUCK
damn damn damn damn
and that is an understatement

I don't want to be the female eqivelant of Josh
Really, I don't
Sometimes shit happens, though..
Hey every crew has one

Fuckin hell my speakers SUCKKK

Ugh given the chance
i would have made everything okay
instead im ignored and jusdt keep drinking

so many of other thing s i coulf have said
wanted to but fuck it
its too late
but it probably would have been incrediable
untill i thought of how mucuh work i had to do
but ugvhhhh

Timess likes this god help me
Dave is better than most of you
sooo much better
<3 <3

What's a good idea for an anniversery present that isn't absolute crap
and the first person who says a new girlfriend is going to die ;-)
bleh this is sad
im exhausted and its not even 10